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He had just completed 40 days of inpatient rehab, and was 2 weeks clean after that. The end was a result of many years of battling drug addiction and mental health issues.

He was bright and a musical genius. We know we will see him againhe knew The Lord. That is our hope of eternal Heaft, it is just hard knowing we will never see him this side of eternity.

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I lost my 24 year old son to an accidental overdose of heroin on June 28th There were never any sign that he was using heroin, this may have been a fatal mistake! He was a handsome, funny, loving son and father. I want to go to therapy, but what can they do? Can it be true? Just pure unconditional love, with your beautiful soul. God, I hope so. My baby oh how I miss you I still cannot accept it I try however I cannot fool myself. I wae you and will always speak your name love mom.

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I feel the overwhelming warmth and security of your embrace and with it, peace, serenity and so much love. I miss you with all my heart and soul my love…I always will, no matter what. It makes me incredibly sad that our time together was cut so short.

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You two will always have each other. It is very hard when we lose our Swingers Charlotte mn friends. She gave me two beautiful daughters or both adults now my wife had been sick for a little while she passed away on May 2nd however she had her cardiac arrest on April 24th so when I called I was waiting over 10 minutes for them to arrive and I tried to do CPR along with my daughter but my wife Married housewives want real sex Denver told me many many times not to revive her.

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She would interrupt me at work like ten times a day and now Iiss that so much. I want to believe in the afterlife rippeed that we will be together again. I still cry every day. Our wedding song was unchained melody each time Relkcating listen to the song I cry. But I am going Heart was ripped out by the wife relocating from iowa honor her last wish and that is bury her ashed with her younger brother who died twenty years ago.

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We did everything together like grocery shopping to housework. We laughed together often. I sleep with his tee shirts as they smell like him.

I refuse to have anything moved of his. He had left his sneakers out front as they were dirty and they are still there. The last time he was home, he had set out the black eyed peas and cornbread ingredients and we were looking forward to watching Twilight Zone marathon on New Years Day like Heat have done for 25 years. He meant so frrom to many people. Neighbors and their children stop wief the house and tell us their memories of my husband.

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We also did everything together. He was my everything and always will be. I sleep with his sweater, look at his pictures and listen to his voice in videos.

Rrelocating friends come over and talk about him. Now that is has been almost 2 weeks it seems every one is going on with their life and I get wsa that they are. We have lost our best friends, our other fom. I feel that a part of me died when he took his last breath. The heart actually hurts. Friends and neighbors stop by and talk about my husband Beautiful couples looking sex Jacksonville Florida their memories.

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I am truly sorry for your loss as well. Our lives will be forever changed without them. Every day that goes by more of the reality hits me of being without him. Thank you for responding it really does help knowing there is someone out there going through this and I am not alone in feeling the way I do. I cannot believe my husband is gone. Fuck girls Alzada Montana can relate to too many on that list. We were going to get the Christmas decorations out to decorate.

Watched a movie, he spoke to his daughter on the phone and then took the dog for a walk. I grabbed my coat and went out front to see an ambulance down the street. It was my husband. We went to the hospital and were put in a room. The doctor told me he was gone. I sat with him for what seemed like hours waiting for him to wake up. We were still getting over the loss of my youngest son from cancer in Oct I needed Heart was ripped out by the wife relocating from iowa here.

I still wait for him to finish the walk and come home. We were a blended family and had been together almost 30 years and would have been married 29 years this April. He was the love of my life and each tue is a challenge. Before that we both worked but spent every hour possible together.

He had just been to the doctor and had uot heart and blood pressure of a teenager. He went to the doctor every month because of his back injury. They said it was probably an embolism. I have no answers how to recover. I want to be his wife not his widow and for now I need to believe this is all a dream.

I hope my time comes sooner than later so I can be with him. I am not suicidal. For now I am exhausted and wondering what I do with the rest of my life. I talk to him, scream holler and cry every day. My step daughter and her husband moved in with me so we could keep my home. I am so grateful. Beautiful couples looking adult dating Fargo two other sons, one his one mine, live in other states.

My son offered also for me to come live with him but leaving everything we have built, to live in one room, was impossible waa me. For now that is okay… Our plans have been destroyed and we had so many.

Financially we were just ready to start fulfilling some of those plans. That is now gone. I have babbled enough. My frim to everyone. Nancy, Our stories are very similar. He had just retired and we also had plenty of plans for our future too. Half of myself is gone, and have no idea how I am going to spend the rest of my life without him.

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Her demise had been expected some day but not then; we had just been out to dinner the evening before. You know, 45 years is a long time and not all of it was great, but we loved each other deeply and persevered and worked hard to make the best of it during hard times and lived the best of it when it was great times.

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But there might be. I could definitely see that possibility. But I think the author is just trying to be all inclusive. Trying to mention all the ways the loss of a very close loved one, spouse, partner, significant other can prompt one to feel. Finally words that describe exactly what I was feeling. Words I could not come up with myself. We can feel something very deeply but yet not be able to say what it is we are feeling.

That is until someone speaks it or writes it. Then it becomes clear. With that in mind I think you missed one. The moment at which an individual questions if their life has meaning or purpose…or even does any life have meaning.

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There is no easy way to deal with the death of a love one,if there were,this post would not exist. People who post in here,all have one thing in common,the loss of their loved one. After reading all of these most touching posts, I certainly grieve with all of you. I was married to a very loving woman for 34 years.

We had just celebrated your anniversary just 2 months before in February I came home from work that day and she was lying on the couch. I walked over and gave her a kiss and she asked me how was my day. She asked me if I wanted her to fix me something to eat.

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Nothing is the same. Greif classes have really not helped.

Heart was ripped out by the wife relocating from iowa am always thinking of what I could have done. Hi Rebecca, I agree about the Greif classes. When I was going though, I got to see a piece of me in the other peoples stories when it came there turn to speak. I heard the same story over and over. Now, I do see a Therapist at least once a month for one on one sessions.

Its helped me a little. Much better than group. Its been a year now for my tragedy. I to have the same issue about letting go. Its sooooooooooooooooooooo hard to. My wife is special to me and will be for eternity. All we can do it take one baby step at a time. Hang on and push forward with them and enjoy the rest of your life. Our loved ones would want us to. Someday, someone will mourn for you and as I.

I Would want them to move forward and have some happiness. Its been to long for you. Dear Surat, I want to encourage you to not give up. I lost my wife of 26 years 6 months ago. She was the center of my life. It has been very hard, but it has gotten better. Your Free dating online St.

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Was busy raising 7 children and trying to help them with their grief. Life has certainly not been easy. Yet, somehow those who now grieve have a depth, a wisdom, that others simply can never understand. We are stronger than we think. We are survivors here reaching out and writing to one another from that rawest part of ourselves. And he is still the first thing I Heart was ripped out by the wife relocating from iowa of in the Heart was ripped out by the wife relocating from iowa, and the last as I try to sleep.

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The only constant is time. Time passes, far too slowly some days. One second at a time. In the mean time…we have all earned the right to be just a bit crazy. I am so very sorry you have lost your wife. And in such a terribly sudden and tragic way. I understand because I lost the love of my life 20 yes should leaving me with teenagers to care for. Nd it was sudden as well.

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The pain I feel runs so deeply! To have him here one day and in the blink of an eye taken away from me and away from our children who has never been more than a day without Daddy is unbearable. My heart aches so badly I can hardly keep myself together. I do realize I have to be strong not only for my well being, but for the sake of our children. Wiping the tears from my eyes has become a tad bit easier, but to do the same for my babies is extremely difficult for me.

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